A Very Long Day

Today I basically spent the entire day in my room doing my take home midterm that was due at 7PM. I was freaking out around 6:40PM because it didn't look like the attached file in the email I was sending my professor would upload. It was 9 pages of ideas, pictures, terminologies and...just plain words. Now I have another paper to write, four articles to read, and in addition try to get a little bit of sleep (not to mention take a shower). Thankfully Susan (who just wrote about me in her blog...she spoils me...:o>) just made me think about God. Actually, I've been thinking about Him the entire day saying, "Please, let this paper get a good grade. PLEASE!" But it was asking Him for something rather than meditating in Him. But Susan reminded me of the love of God. Through her blog she reminded me of how we all internalize the love He gives us in our own way, and at different points of our lives.For her, she internalized the love of God through her dad's memory. For me, it's often times through the lives of others. It reminds me that there is no greater proof of His love through the grace we have received... For us it was free, but for Jesus it cost him his life. How is it then that we just so easily sometimes dismiss the love of God? Sometimes I get mad at myself. How dare I doubt Him with my future when all the time His love is enveloping me? How dare I be so unthankful....but I guess that is also something else that our Abba Father is good at: forgiving us.