Around Me

Today is Esther's birthday. She has officially turned 25 and according to her she has now lived a quarter of her life. If she ends up living (by God's grace) till she is one hundred and three, that statement would be false.
On the other hand I've been thinking a lot about what it means to grow older. Being still young (23) I find that there is still a lot to do and time to do it all...well except if I want to change my career, but I wouldn't want to do that because I really do enjoy the fact that I'm studying to be a Special Education teacher. But that's beside the point. More and more the notion of marriage and children has suddenly been popping out at me through all directions. Sarah has already been married like for 3 months, I've received word of other future marriages to come and I keep hearing of all these pregnancies going on. Actually I'm overjoyed with the fact that soon there will be more babies around. The only thing is that being surrounded by all these things makes me start to wonder about my marriage and family. So I want to hold on to Song of Songs 2:7, 3:5, and 8:4; "Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you: Do not arouse or awaken love until so desires." I'm holding to this verse because even though I know all these things are going on around me I don't want them to be factors for why I would suddenly get the urge to marry and start a family. The truth is that I'm in a good place in my life where I am trying to survive school and grow spiritually. Yet, being in this type of environment has also made me realize how hard it is for us women in general to be surrounded by such an environment and not be tempted or lured in. I think the notion of romance and love has been ingrained in our minds from childhood that when something strikes it...ideas just start to fly around. So if there is anyone who may be in this situation I want to give you Song of songs 2:7, 3:5, and 8:4. Don't start thinking about love and marriage and of making a family till God so desires to put this in your heart. Though the things around you may be telling you one thing there is nothing like God's timing. The more I learn about our Heavenly Father the more I am aware that He does all things at His own timing. If we try to do things in our own timing...we just end up suffering more. It's better to just wait on Him though to some it may seem unreasonable.