The end of yet another semester...

Today I officially finished everything I had to do for school. One semester down and two left to go. I'm excited and happy. Also a little scared because I'm realizing that time is passing so fast and the 'adult' responsibilities are catching up to me. I've had to recently deal with looking at how much I'm going to have to pay back in loans after school and...let's say I didn't take it too well. This showed me that I have to really trust in God and know that he will provide. Ever since I was young the inability to take care of things on my own have scared me. Now that I know I definitely can't take care of things on my own I'm in need of always looking towards God for strength and support. Which leads me to recognize that I have to go to God more in prayer. Lately I've been so focused on finishing school that I haven't put my heart into praying. This, like always, has started to interfere with my spiritual growth. I have to get myself back to the heart of things. I was remembering a lot about Judges 10: 15-16 "But the Israelites said to the LORD, "We have sinned. Do with us whatever you think best, but please rescue us now." Then they got rid of the foreign gods among them and served the LORD. An he could bear Israel's misery no longer." I've just been thinking that God always embraces us when we sincerely come to him and seek him. He suffers when he denies his grace upon us, but he wants us to give all of our hearts to him. God is jealous for me I realize...he wants me to seek him whole-heartedly. To not let anything take his place, not school, troubles, life... I want to be like the Israelites and say to God, "Do whatever you think is best in my life, just please always rescue me." Actually, I probably say most of the time to God, "God, please rescue me." Need to work on that.