Blessed by the Youth Conference

So yesterday I returned from a youth conference and the only thing I can say is: it was awesome! I learned so much from the pastor that came to speak during the conference (pastor Q),the speakers that were great, the cooking servants who were excellent(...Sarah, Anne, Ema...), and the icing on the top of the cake... which was the youth group themselves. All of them are in middle/high school, and they make me so proud. Though they may not know it God is going to use them and is even using them for His glory. They are being fed so much with the things of God so that later they will feed many others and save their lives. It always amazes me when I see the future and those who will be in the front lines serving the Lord. Seeing how they rise up to the challenge and grow in order to partake in the glory of Lord. I thank the Lord for having had the opportunity to see it.
I am also very thankful to the Lord because he has taught me about the issues in my own heart and how to fix it. So the book that we studied or heard on was Ephesians. All of it! In the book it reminds us of one of the commandments in Exodus that God gave to Moses and that was in Ephesians 6: 1-3 "Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. "Honor your father and mother"—which is the first commandment with a promise— "that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth."" This has been something that the Lord has been speaking to me about for a long time, but didn't convict me till now. I realize that I have not been honoring God by not honoring my relationship with my dad. For many years now I haven't really had a relationship with my dad because I've been telling myself that our relationship now is fine. Which is not because I don't have one. I've avoided him and I barely talk to him because though I love him and I forgave him...I think I've been scared to trust in him and his desire to even want to have a relationship with me. This I think has affected my own relationship with the Lord and i now see my fault. Yet the Lord is gracious and he is giving me the opportunity to fix what I haven't tried to do for years. I pray to really be able to take this challenge and glorify the Lord through it.